"The smell of her hair, the taste of her mouth, the feeling of her skin seemed to have got inside him, or into the air all round him. She had become a necessity, something that he not only wanted but felt that he had a right to. The she said that she could not come, he had the feeling that she was cheating him." (Page 139)
At this point in volume two, Winston and Julia have been meeting up quite a few times and having relations in secrecy. The problem that I have been noticing within Winston, but not only Winston, is the way the relationship is set up. Because these two (Julia and Winston) cannot spend time together without it becoming physical I fear the worst for the relationship. Like Winston mentions above in the quote he feels that he has a right to be with her. Things could go wrong if her feelings for him alter even slightly, because as we have seen Winston is not the most level headed person and he constantly overreacts.
I agree with you that it is hard for them to meet without expressing their feelings physically. "He wished above all that they had some place where they could be alone together without feeling the obligation to make love every time they met." (Orwell, 142) Winston is a deep thinker and a worrier. As we learned earlier when Winston was initially trying to meet her alone for the first time, he believed he had to arrange it quickly before she would change her mind. "What he feared more than anything else was that she would simply change her mind if he did not get in touch with her quickly." (Orwell, 112)
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